My weight loss weigh in for 11/21 to 12/4.
I am stepping up to the plate and fessing up. I screwed up. I was on a roll losing weight. I had lost 9 lbs, was sooo close to my first goal of 10 pounds lost. I started doing math in my head – “if I lose 2lbs a week every week until Christmas I’ll weigh x, and if I lose 3lbs a week I’ll weigh y. Even if I only lose 1 pound a week by summer I’ll weigh z.”
Then it’s like I already thought I’d lost all that weight. I got cocky or felt indulgent or
stupid something and threw it all away. Not just indulgent for one day, shake it off and get right back at it. Nope. For 10 days (Thanksgiving week and beyond), I let myself eat and drink whatever I wanted. Whatever I wanted did not include spinach salads and water, more like 20 pounds of potatoes washed down with wine. A complete abandonment of my Nutrisystem plan.
The result was that I gained 4 pounds. Not only did I gain 4 pounds, but I was so embarrassed about my
gluttony lapse that I didn’t blog last Sunday with my weekly weigh in post. It was a wake up call for me.
I am definitely sabotaging myself. As soon as I get a little bit ahead, I do something to totally undermine my progress. And this can’t be chalked up to indulging a craving. One bowl of mashed potatoes would have been fine – two bowls a day for 5 days? Not fine.
I know that eating carbs causes your body to produce dopamine (a happiness hormone). I know that I’ve been stressed and depressed for
forever a while now. I can logically see that I’ve been craving carbs (and eating them) to counter my emotions. I can also see that I’m hiding behind my weight, using it as an excuse for a variety of things.
My friend Joann wrote a fabulous post about her weight loss journey with before and after pictures. She wrote about the excuses we make for our weight, all the tricks we use to hide our body and double chin in photos, and that her kids no longer make little jokes about her weight. I related to all of it.
I don’t want my 3 year old to pat my butt and tell me what a big butt I have any more. I don’t want to think about how I’m standing, or god forbid sitting, when a picture’s being taken. I don’t want to take a deep breath to gather my courage before taking my cover up off at the pool. I don’t want to be fat any more.
So I need some new thoughts in my head, some new emotions to work toward, some new ways to think about myself. I’m starting with this self talk, but would love any suggestions of other sayings to remember and repeat to myself until I believe them!
- I deserve to be attractive.
- I deserve to be proud of my body.
- I deserve to look forward to buying clothes and going to the beach.
- It is time to become the person I want to be – both inside and outside.
Wish me luck! And please remind me of this post when I have weeks that I gain weight. I know there will be a few, but hopefully you can help me jump right back on the wagon to that beach body I envision.
By the way, I followed the Nutrisystem plan for the past 3 days and lost a pound already. I’m telling you this system works!
- Total weight loss to date – 6 pounds.
- First goal 10 pounds (4 lbs to go).
Weekly Weight Loss Tip:
Identify the emotions that you’re feeling when you head to the pantry or the fridge. What can you do to overcome those emotions to prevent eating as a compensator?
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